Please note that these pages may
prove distressing to some.
The page is about why I
started an Email Group for Christian Women.
I come
from an incest family.
That is a fairly stark and shocking
statement, but there is no nice way to put it and no easy way to read
it.
I hope you can appreciate (if you aren't one of the many abused
people out there), that it is terrible to live it.
As you can imagine,
my childhood was not fun. As well as the sexual abuse there was emotional
abuse.
My mother coped by distancing herself and working to get out of
the house. I have two older sisters who both suffered more and longer than I
did, although the "father" who was doing this was not their father.
He
was mine.
I always knew that what had happened had happened. I know
some people don't remember.
I thought all families were the same. I
coped with my life by being expectionally naive in many ways, but very good
at reading what people expected of me.
When I finally realised that I had
been sexually abused - that there was term for what had happened to
us, I all of a sudden realised that I _was_ a thinking, feeling
person.
I had rights.
I have the right to be happy, to make my
own choices and my own mistakes. I have the right to be free from fear and
abuse.
A lot of rights had been taken away from me - the right
to have a childhood, the right to have good relationships, the right to
feel like a real person.
The right to be happy.
I have them back
now, and I intend pursuing them for the rest of my life.
If there is
anyone out there who is on the same road as me - at any
stage, having just realised abuse, have just survived abuse, having got
to a point of feeling good about themselves - ANYONE, I would love
to have your input and help to continue my journey, and hope that I might be
of help and support in yours.